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NICE FACE. A rlly pretty one, HAHA. right.
I'm just kidding lah, it's MY DITTO - NICOLEclaraLEE that has the pretty face hahah, agree? Anyway, today's first and second service was a great wake-up call. The first one, especially. Avis was so hyper in the morning, why leh. Then she said she would SHUT OFF after three. Hurh, haahaah.
Coolio man, i went for two services on a sunday! My second time already.and.i.loved.it. Sigh, unfortunately, i can't go for next two weeks' cell and services. Gonna go overseas with my family, but it's alright. You know i feel that God now just wants us to rlly get close with our families and bond togther closely. Mmm-hmm.
Any person who passes by this blog, read this. Hey you! You got Jesus? If you're asking, who's Jesus?
Hey man, who is JESUS? HE, my friend, is an AWESOME SAVIOR.
"What? Saviour? I didn't die or anything. I didn't get "saved" by this Jesus. Whenever did i need Him?"
Well, if you didn't know, He actually died for your sins. Really, He did. He hung on a cross, He hung his dignity and allowed himself to be spat on, to be nailed, i tell you, NAILED on the cross.
"Huh, why did he want to suffer so much?"
He suffered so much because He
Loved us so much. He didn't want to see us go to hell. He didn't want to see us suffer. God rather sent His only begotten son, His love, to die for us. His blood washes our sins away. Just because of this man, this great man called Jesus.
I knew about Jesus long ago, I went to church even though my parents weren't Christians but my auntie and uncle were. So they brought me to church. After a while, i stopped going because of exams, family outings etc. I stopped seeing God for quite a while till when i was P6, i got back into going to church. But again, i stopped after i couldn't attend sunday school because tuition time clashed with it. So my auntie and uncle asked me to go for the first service, which was for adults. I didn't know why i just couldn't be focussed and i will always be yawning, and feeling sleepy during the sermon. God just wasn't going through me and i wasn't just connected to God at all. At that time, when i was just secondary one, i was still very fresh with God though i know that i had been to church for about 1-2 years. Eventually, i thought God didn't really care for me and well, i actually stopped believing in Him for a period of time. Honestly, i was kind of vulgar. I didn't know what overcame, but i somehow know it was the devil intruding into my life. I suddenly felt being 'extreme' and use the f word, like you know..act cool. It always feels like that whenever you speak vulgarities. But you know what? Throughout all my bad speaking, all my backsliding, God didn't leave me in corner, saying, "This child makes me SO angry! I should have just lost hope in her long time ago. Who would care for such a child!"
Well, God did.
He didn't think that way. In fact, He was giving me a breakthrough, He was opening up windows for me to enter into His kingdom. I found salvation with the help of this senior, Sue Yuan. She invited me many a times to her church, and so i just went for the sake of going. I didn't think it would really affect me or anything.
Guess what. It did.
I was totally changed, just so drawn in by His power, His majestic. Don't think it in a brainwashing manner. It is His true power. Don't think it that whatever i'm saying now is all just made-up, all just to make all non-believers become stronger non-believers, NO. I'm not writing this all testimony for the sake of just BRAINWASHING you all to become zombies. NO NO NO. True love is true love. True words is true words.
From then on, the change of being saved completely turned my life upside down. I had the confidence, cus i knew God was with me whenever i need Him. I had the courage to stand up for what's right cus i know treasures await me in Heaven. I know there's always One who loves me, no matter who i am, because God loves me for who i am. He created me, to be in His image. Just like in the bible, God is the silver refiner and He will create us in His image, not anyone's elses. Mostly, really, God loves us. God loves us. God LOVES US. No one's love is greater than God Himself.
As i want to end off, i just wanna reach out to those people, those people have not known Jesus, or knew but backslided like how i did, i just wanna tell you that Jesus loves you so much that He died for you. Can you imagine, someone dying for you, someone innocent, blameless, dying for us? A people who have sinned countless times, and did so many awful things? That was Jesus. Now, you have known so much about Jesus, what are you gonna do? Hey, are you just gonna sit back and just click on another link? Or are you gonna stand for what's right? Hmm? It's all up to you, but i pray within my heart that eyes be opened and ears, let them hear. For what is righteous will go into your hearts, and believe for what is right. I tell you, this wasn't any easy choice for me to make when i actually went back and accepted Christ. I cried. I couldn't understand why would God want me back right after i had abandoned so many times. You know, the answer is simple. So simple. That repeating it just makes me go back to those times with my first Love.
"He loves us. So so so much."
I'm always free to chat or to discuss some things about God. (: Hey, don't be afraid. Stand up.
I'm really really glad that i've typed this all out. I'm glad that i've typed my heart out for all of you to read.
Thank you and God blessssss!
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